Only you

Thinking of only you…

You, with those eyes, blue, blue and deep as the ocean and just as mysterious as that deep sea. I want to gaze into those eyes of yours forever, your beautiful eyes. They look at me now, as we speak, but you don’t know me. Not yet anyway, but I know we’ll meet soon. Remember when I first saw you a few years back? You dropped your books and I helped you with them, I accompanied to your house. You were always smiling and laughing, I remember every lovely word that came out of that beautiful mouth, upper lip a bit fuller than the lower lip, the curve of your lips as you smiled polished white teeth as you laughed.

That laugh…

Like bells ringing in the most amazing of songs, breath-taking. But you never asked my name, you never did. You only talked about yourself and even if I love hearing about yourself it all feels so wrong. I want you to know my name, I want us to talk and laugh with each other. But you haven’t seen me again; I don’t get it, why can’t I stop thinking about you? All I can think about is those gold locks of hair, blue eyes framed by blond lashes and atop them thin gold eyebrows. A small well-shaped nose, light gold freckles decorating those cheeks, smooth alabaster skin. Rosy lips, a thin elegant neck, slender shoulders and arms, smooth hands, like feathers.

That touch…

So soft, so right, you touched my hand and I just knew we were destined to be together. Even if you don’t know my name, even if you only talk about yourself I want you close. So very close to me, but you don’t see me.
You never do.

I follow you around sometimes; watch you from the shade of the trees, watch you talk to the others. Every time I see you with him my stomach curls, I want to dump my stomach’s contents, I hate him. How can he be with you? He who does not deserve you. You’re far too beautiful for him. Don’t you see what I see? He’s a liar, he’s horrible, every smile every laugh every story every kiss is a lie. You’re not supposed to be with him, you’re supposed to be with me. Me and only me, why can’t you see the obvious? We’re destined for each other, meant to be together.

That’s why I want us to be together, that’s why that same day after seeing him telling you even more lies I went to my house. I cried, but I don’t cry anymore. That’s when I thought of it. I would pick up a knife, the one in my kitchen, I picked it up, watched the light glint of its edge and I knew what to do. That night I walked to your house, I opened a window, like I had done many times before. The one on the back, next to the door so the neighbors can see me, the glass is broken and you’re always talking about fixing it but you never do. Guess you’re a bad procrastinator.

I climb the stairs, slip into your room, I watch you sleep. Your slow relaxed breathing and I want to curl down on your side. Sleep with you. But I have a mission, I have to protect you from that liar, we’ll both be together now. We will and nothing will be able to separate us. So I near your bed watch those lids covering those beautiful eyes and it all feels so wrong. Why would you cover those beautiful eyes? I feel this is wrong so I take the knife and rip off those lids, now I can see your eyes. Those beautiful eyes, why do you scream so? Your bell-like voice morphs into screams of horror, and you try to bash at me with those hands, those lovely hands. I cut those off too, but you keep screaming. Now I watch that mouth, gaping so horribly so I cut off your tongue, there no more screaming but now you struggle against me, why? I just want to be together with you.

I laugh at the funny expressions you pull, you’re so funny. With your blood and your pain. But those eyes still look at me; I want those eyes in my hands. So I take the knife and scoop them out, your body goes limp while I still hold you and I laugh some more. But when you don’t laugh back I know something’s wrong so I reach for the gun you keep on your night table, take it to my head and fire.

Now we’ll always be together.

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Written a some time ago, don't ask, I have no idea what was going through my head except boredom. I decided to spell check it then post it *shrug*

Happy New Years Eve! Hopefully those holidays were alright!

- P&U